so sad i want to cut my throat..

[!NV!CTUS]

i cant afford my own place.. urg.. my mom decided to move out and move in a place that isn't safe for kids.. so i decided to give my kids to my ex(to their dad) because i think it was the best solution.. he took our kids this morning and until now i cant stop myself from crying.. my eyes is swelling like shit.. i have a runny nose.. i hate this.. what do i do to get over this.. i know i wont be able to sleep.. :mad2::mad2::mad2:

[Big Ozzie]

When you're at the Bottom,
the only way to go is UP!
It is sad that you made the decision to relinquish custody of your children. This has not been done through the courts has it? Did you have court ordered legal custody and if so, why? If you did, that advise will come in another post.
First, you must get your life together.
Get a Job.
In fact get a full time and a part time job. While your Ex has the kids, it will give you a chance to earn the money to get a place.
Once you have a full time job and a place big enough for you and the kids AND have some extra cash saved...get your kids back. You may need the cash if your Ex fights giving them back. Either way, it will be good to have some extra cash on hand.
Do whatever you have to do to support yourself and your children. Scrub floors or wash dishes if you have to. No matter what it is you have to do, hold your head up and be Proud.
Because you CAN do it on your own! It may be Hard at times and it'll get you down...but you can do it! :xyxthumbs:

[!NV!CTUS]

i have a full time job.. the only problem is that the cost of living is way too high.. same reason why people from here go to the US to earn money.. to make my crying even worst i receive a phone call from my son and he keep saying i miss you mommy and i love you.. its so heart breaking. now i am crying even more..

[Big Ozzie]

Too bad....I wouldn't mind having a cute, live in Filipino katulong or nobya that likes animals.

[Monstermash]

i have a full time job.. the only problem is that the cost of living is way too high.. same reason why people from here go to the US to earn money.. to make my crying even worst i receive a phone call from my son and he keep saying i miss you mommy and i love you.. its so heart breaking. now i am crying even more..

Sounds like your having a terrible time of it :( I hope things get better for you. Life for you at the moment must really suck. Why did your mum want to move to a different place, did she know the difficulties it would put you and your children through? Like Big Oz said things can only get better and I really hope they do.

[MightyTiny]

Really sorry to hear about your situation. :(

For what it's worth, I think your handing over your children to your ex, as much as it must hurt, just goes to show how much you love them; you put their interests before your own feelings. That's what a good mother does.

I hope you'll find a way to improve your financial situation, and to sort out a place to live that you could share with your kids soon. My grandmother, who's lived though a lot in her time (from working in a military hospital during the war as a teenager, to being a war refugee, and losing all she owned), always tells me that however tough things get, the sun will always come up tomorrow, and new dawn may bring new hope; and eventually one day will be better. We just need to grit our teeth and hang on through the tough times.

Best of luck to you, and may that better day come soon for you.

[phyuckew]

Don't give up...you are doing very great now. You have chosen life for your children over your own. That counts. Remember the rules...your children come first in life and without you here you never get a chance to see what's up. It's a no brainer.

[!NV!CTUS]

thanks,you guys made me smile.. maybe i need to think that what i did was for the best.. i feel so bad thinking i woke up 2 am this morning and i had a hard time goin back to sleep.. i wake up every 10 mins.. and i hate feeling this way.. nways thanks again for making me feeling okay..

[Clouds in the Sky]

Awe sweetie, I admire you. It takes a great deal of courage and common sense to do what you have done; I respect you tremendously for that. Cai, when there's a will, there is a way, (I know, cliché...) and I am convinced that you will find a good solution to your current predicament. You are a bright, accomplished, and educated woman. Nobody can take that away from you. I know you will be able to get your children back, just don't give up.

[!NV!CTUS]

Awe sweetie, I admire you. It takes a great deal of courage and common sense to do what you have done; I respect you tremendously for that. Cai, when there's a will, there is a way, (I know, cliché...) and I am convinced that you will find a good solution to your current predicament. You are a bright, accomplished, and educated woman. Nobody can take that away from you. I know you will be able to get your children back, just don't give up.

thanks.. your avatar reminds me of me when i was asking my kids to reflect and face the wall..:o and btw, thanks..

[Heero Valentine]

you did what was best i guess, your kids are probaly happy with you as mum.
giving your childeren to your ex just to let them have a better life.
they probaly don't like it now, but later on they will thank you.
and i've the feeling, u probaly don't like it, u have to move out.
it sucks but if the cost are really to high i reccomend to live somewhere else, a flat or crash for the time at a friends house? dunno, i hope u'll do better. just keep your head up cai, :) we're already proud of you

[tgd_02]

here ill be nice
live w/me
there

[Big Ozzie]

here ill be nice
live w/me
there

Too late, Homz...it waz already offered !! :D

[jaba]

to make my crying even worst i receive a phone call from my son and he keep saying i miss you mommy and i love you.. its so heart breaking. now i am crying even more..
I went through a similar situation when I split up from my wife. The pain in the face of my daughter when we told her was horrifying to say the least - she was 11yrs old. The boys were older and more able to deal with it. I hope you find a decent home soon. Good luck Cai and stay strong - like Ozzie says - the only way is up! :xyxthumbs: